我终于失去了你

好累的一天,原本是该睡个好觉的..
但..想起了你..叫我真的没办法入眠..

刚刚打给了她..说了好多..正经的,废话的..毕竟我们也一段时间没真正聊过了..她很好,从谈话中感觉到最近的她还挺不错的..
在一切都那么和谐的气氛下..她问出个问题
"你...是不是有些问题没问我??"

"你认为有这个必要吗?我不好意思问你啊..."
不是不好意思..只是我没资格再过问你的什么...
电话断线了,可能应该像你所说的,转去用postpaid会更好..但,我想没这必要了!

"你想问什么啊??"..她的信息里透露出她迫不及待想让我知道些什么...
过了两封吧..我问了
"那天那男的是谁?"..从那天遇见你后,我真的真的不想去问这问题..我害怕你的答案,更害怕如何去面对这答案..

"男友"..我知道这是你想要让我知道的..

我痛了..这久违的感觉从新回到我的心上..
我没流泪,只是它在眼中绕了几圈..
我找不到任何一个伤心的理由...
是我叫你去寻找幸福..
是我用尽千百万个理由让你对我死心..
你做到了,我应该高兴的,不是吗??
原来我只不过是个装伟大的家伙!!!

之后也只有继续做好伟人的角色,祝你幸福..
心里面却是多么渴望你像以前那样试探我,好让我更紧张我们这模糊不清的关系
在那30几分钟..你跟我说只要遇到喜欢的就去追, 别让幸福白白溜走..
我还是用回以前的那句应你...
我想我这想法曾经也让你痛了心吧....

但,我却忘了告诉你,你一直在我心中..
4 年了..幸好有你一路陪伴着我..也该是时候做个了断了..
我依然还是那句应你的话!!
但..我对自己许下了承诺..
只要我遇到了喜欢的,我不会再犹豫..不会再考虑太多..我会跟着爱情最初的那份冲动去寻找我的下一段精彩故事...

而你..那就这样吧!!愿你幸福..真的很谢谢这些年你对我的用心..你不是我的女友,却比女友让我深刻的多..

我终于失去了你,在一个宁静的夜晚...

说不出的告别

回程的飞机滑进了无边的天际

一样的天气 两种心情

装满回忆的行李 留在原地 是爱的纪念品

这一趟旅行写完了故事的结局

没有惊叹句 没有疑问句

如果我不够坚定喊出了你的名字

打破沉默的僵局 我该说对不起 还是称心如意

我远远看着你 保持着安全的距离

却有个声音在我心里挣扎着要出去 从你眼睛看不出你是否找到新恋情

那抹忧郁刺痛着我不可能忘记

我说服我自己 没有我你会更顺心

可能你已经云淡风轻 当我是个曾经

是不甘心还是依然爱着你

在告别之后让它随风去。。。

Self-accusation

I'm self-accusation..i'm blaming myself..y i careless like tis hell..
Din see d qns??tis is d response of my fren..my mum....sisters when i told them..
Yup..no doubt about it at all..i really din see d qns at all during d exam..until chit meng had told me tat.

Haiz..my A had gone..A- gone too..
I keep on convince myself 4gt about it...
I keep on telling myself dun blame 2 much on myself anymore..
n i promise tat tis is my last time did tis kind of mistake..

Ok,forget about it..we can't back to the past..jz accept it..
Start thinking wat can i do in 2 weeks such short holidays in hometown..
Bt,b4 tat...i'm goin to Jogoya..to enjoy my enrich n delicious(i think lar..) dinner wit yong hui..mou mou..n their roomate..ha
Jogoya man,is a high expenditure place 4 me..100++ per person...
if thr is no coupon...sure i won go for it at this moment..

long time din play guitar edy,i almost 4gt whr is d chord oledy,cz i'm jz a beginner last time..nw worst den beginner..swt swt..

Only left a 7 weeks short semester..
i will say goodbye to my foundation studies..
will seperate wit my gang..we will persue our own dream,our own courses,join wit another group of buddies...
bt i think,we still can like nw if we have a hang out or yamcha oftenly..

Only wat can i say is..
珍惜每一次的相聚，珍惜每一次的相遇，
亲情，友情，爱情，都是可贵的，
至少每一次的珍惜都是值得我们回味。。在一个陌生孤独的未来。。

MY 2 weeks in hometown..

haiz..no taking many photo during cny period..tis is wat i repentant..
hm..back kulim..see a lot of my old frens..bt..still a lot thr i can't meet..sori,i lack of time..i nit 2 back here for d sucks final exam..

cut a short short hair n dye it..ha..
2day when i go skul..many ppl said i chg a lot..
is jz hairstyle n colour oni wat..chg a lot 1 is yong hui lar..haha
anyway,thx a lot for those who praise me..

tis final exam,honestly..i hv no confident at all to get better den last sem..
2 weeks in hometown..jz 3 days lik tat touched my lecture notes..
no do past year..no revise tutorial oso..
ha..geng,i dun 1na forced myself to study those things while others are bz prepare for d celebration of cny..whr gt mood oo?

2009..a lucky beginning year for me..won 200++ from gamble
hope my luck will continue throughout tis year n watever i do will 顺顺利利...
haha

actually a lot of things i 1na express..bt..is 2 much,is better for me 2 keep in mind...hah
laziness is d oni reason...
15th Feb..back hometown by filght..wow..damn cheap,juz RM 37.50 oni..
back thr to call my frens hang out again...

Hope in d niu year....
1)All my family n my frens n those who i love n those who love me happy everyday,stay health,all d best...

2)All d things i wish 2 do hope can complete in tis year...

tats all..hehe..still left phy,chem,public speaking,math,programming test waiting for me...
on9 1st lar..study at nite lar..haha..